I have been wanting to write a blog for quite a few years now and although I have many thoughts that can be put onto paper (or typed via my wordpress app on my phone!), I never felt my words would be liked, appreciated, wanted or even worthy enough for others to want to read. The funny…or not so funny thing is that all of the above is actually how I feel about myself…more on that later.
So am sat in my local cafe, deciding that right here, right now, is as good a time as any to spill me!!
I’m not the most outspoken of people and I am whatever the polar opposite of whatever confidence is, but I want and deserve be heard. I feel that what I have to say is important and doing it this way means I am able to express that without coming too far out of my comfort zone – this is my step 1 of becoming a confident woman inspite of the obstacle placed in my life.
What obstacle would that be? It’s the awful obstacle of being born with the world’s largest genetic blood disorder, the not so wonderful world of Sickle Cell Disease. This is a condition that in the majority affects African and African-Carribbean folk, it is a genetic illness that cannot be caught but can be carried. Sickle Cell, causes me and many others to live each day in a pain so awful it could only be compared to evil (I cannot bear that word, however my vocabulary feels that that is the most suited word for the pain). It is constant and often times, debilitating. There are numerous other side affects, but I dont want to bog myself or others down with all that jazz right now!
So, now I have all the woe is me Sickle Cell jargon out of the way, lets talk ME, and how WONDERFUL I AM or at least how WONDERFUL I AM BECOMING 😛 I aim to be stronger, braver, a true daughter of the Lord, confident, trusting, honest and just an all around beautiful woman. I reckon I’ve quite a way to go and am ready for the best times of my life. These times will involve my FAMILY, my small group of very important FRIENDS, my church BROTHERS & SISTERS and eventually – when I’m brave enough – my slew of NEW FRIENDS & EXPERIENCES.
Come with me…